I started off this year full of pep and energy, excited to see what the year brought me. And the first few months, while uneventful, were normal. And like I shared before, April and May, well, they were not the easiest of months. But then there was June. June was the worst month to date.
Some of you may or may not know that I LOVE dogs. I have no kids, so my dogs are my fur babies. Just a few days shy of a month ago one of my fur babies, and the youngest one of the whole bunch, was diagnosed with lung cancer. Or maybe a heart tumor. They weren't really sure. Pretty much all we knew was he was sick and it didn't look good. Two days later he died. And that's when everything hit rock bottom. The black cloud that's been hanging over my house for months finally dropped the biggest downpour of all. Of course, dogs die. Everyone dies. I know this. But when it happens to someone you love, it just sort of changes you. In good ways and bad. It makes you realize that life is so much shorter than you could ever expect, and that you must take advantage of the time we do have. Do the things we love. Don't obsess over things that are out of our control. Basically, live your life the way you want it to be, don't wait and wish for the way you hope it turns out. These are all things we tend to forget as time passes. Life's busy, dang it!
However, with that being said, that's what I've been trying to do. Slowly, but surely. No more pressure. If I don't write for one day. One week. Two months. It's okay. If I want to spend all day watching TV, even though there are a thousand and two other things I NEED to be doing, so what. Naturally, I'm very obsessive. I want things to be perfect, but life's messy and not perfect. It never will be. So that's where I've been for the past month. Two months? I can't even remember when I posted last.
Not to mention, our house flooded a few days after all of this happened. Imagine shoes floating in your closet! Two inches of water covering half of your house. Not fun! And.... yes, there is more. It's like I'm the bad news bear over here or something. One of our other fur babies had to have laser eye surgery because he had a cornea ulcer (See his eye? It has to be stitched shut for two weeks! Talk about pain!). Now, it's pretty bad when your dog gets doggie lasik before you, yourself do!
So it's been crazy around here. I'm hoping that things settle down. I'm wishing for Fall to hurry up and get here. It's been way too hot and I'm ready to snuggle up in warm blanket and enjoy the crisp fall breeze.
I did not write this for sympathy. It's just something I'm feeling. I hope all of you are living your life to the fullest every day. Not wishing your life away waiting for the weekend (which I fully admit, I still do most of the time. Especially on Mondays!). No one wants to wake up one day and wonder... where did my life go? No one.
On a much happier, non-depressing, whining, blah, whatever side note: We got a new puppy (despite the fact that I always vowed I never would! Because, yeah, they're cute! But they are also A LOT of TROUBLE!)
Meet Jaxon. Isn't he so freaking adorable?!?!?!!!
How have you guys been? Enjoying your summer? Anything new happening??